big God

recently i have been challenged.
my desire is to travel the world. share the gospel. immerse myself in different cultures and into the lives of others.
i have always been limited to fulfill this desire because i have never been immunized.
why you might ask? my mother doesn't agree with it and frankly neither do i.
so what do i do if i want to go to places like india, africa, china and am limited because i don't have the shots. this has been my struggle for the past few years.
i have been obedient to do ministry locally then in Canada and now in England.

a few weeks ago two friends asked me to go to china with them. i told them no. im limited. i cannot go without getting immunized. as i struggled afresh with this God provided people in my life to challege this thought.
"if you want to go hannah, go!" one person said
"don't let this get in your way."
then there came the nonaudible whisper of God
"step out in faith hannah."

so what if i get immunized? then i can go. or what if i just go into countries that don't make you show proof of immunization? i am still limited. or what if i step out in faith? okay that said what do i do about finances? i still need to pay off ISP. step out in faith.

so here i am a few weeks later. what have i learned or concluded from this struggle?
God has opened my eyes to see his greatness. we serve a great God. a big God. a God that i too often place in a box and limit to a meager size. Lord forgive me.

i believe i can go. it is a command from God (Matt 28:18f). i am stepping out in faith. i am sick of having small faith. i am moving forward, trusting God and believing that he is big enough.

Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"-Isaiah 6:8